your finest copper, please.

My one reason to

stay South

wait and see?

A new man

currently at a cult retreat.

Is 6’4” and sweet

enough to silence

what is most likely fake science?

Or that he fits like a glove?

Lose my breath

and my mind.

Maybe, eventually… love?

Eh, at least enough to get an IUD.

Live a little,

feel some skin.

Let em swim to freedom

till they hit the wall.

Democracy?

Trump love

Insert fear

Inside, copper lasts up to 12 years.

Act now

while you still have the right.

Ah, yes! My “career”

What is it, again?

Stuck in the middle of grown ass men

As the go-between.

Soul sucked in to squeeze.

No job security.

A fucked up fun house.

Great company.

Muffle my screams

lose my voice

smirk at the stupidity.

Clock ticks.

Chasing my tail

investing in dreams

I’m not convinced

were ever my own.

Social proof for men

who need therapy

somehow has become

my history.

Redline.

Is this rock bottom

in disguise?

Maybe I’m just

sleep deprived.

What is time? Not mine.

Meeting scheduled

on the cal

with myself

in a month. I’m busy.

By then if the reminder’s

still snoozed,

sound the alarm

Aww, why don’t I smile?

I’m not suicidal

just idle.

Atrophied muscles

have lost memory

of how to curl up.

Need more gas

Easy fix.

But is it?

Miles and miles

drag racing in a circle

in this car that I’ve just now

learned to drive

but maybe I knew all along.

If I would have just believed

told fear to fuck off

I’d be in a Volkswagen Model T1.

Scenic route

On the run

Soon, babe

I promise

But for now

I just needed to

publicly

emotionally cum.